To Jodi Geddes, motherhood is everything she thought it would be and everything she didn’t think it would be. Every mother has a story and Jodi doesn’t particularly feel like her story is anything special. It’s ironic that at Circle In, Jodi spends every week reading and writing stories from inspiring mothers around Australia and now here she is, trying to find and tell her incredible, moving story.
My motherhood journey started 2 days before our wedding, when I found out I was pregnant. It was magic and I couldn’t have asked for more. Especially given that the year prior had been the worst year of my life as we almost lost my brother. We spent most of that year in hospitals, as a surfing accident left him in a coma and fighting for his life for months. 34 operations, 2 strokes, countless blood transfusions and so much more. And so this pregnancy news was what our family needed after so much heartache.
But this period of happiness lasted only 12 weeks, when at the first scan I knew immediately something was not right. It’s true what they say about mothers instinct and how it just hits you the minute you become a mother. Within minutes of the scan starting, we were rushed to a small room and asked to wait while they made urgent calls and organised further testing. It seemed so unfair, especially after what we had just been through. My husband and I cried like we had never cried before.
A few weeks later we lost our baby boy and I hit rock bottom. I spent weeks in bed and could not imagine how life would ever be the same. My life was still revolving around hospitals as my mother was about to give my brother her kidney and undergo a live transplant on national TV (that’s a whole other story!). And so we really found being back in hospital after losing our baby more difficult than normal, as it bought back so many memories.